I – The House Speakers
I am the curator of my museum
I am the curator of my museum
Take your shoes off now, come step on my carpet
Keep your fingers out of the glass, now, stop it!
Is this a piece worth saving? A jewel for displaying
Have I ever seen such a fine piece
Of high-renaissance thin-coat glazing?
Thirteen more cards and I will reach completion
Brian, come up and eat the dinner!
This painting is epigonic of Titian
Look what I brought back from our vacation
Honey I bought you a decoration
Your room looks like a party from Jan Steen
I have to pick the jewels up
Did that card come from the washing machine
I’ve got to clean the jewels out
This ictus is loose like juba, so pass the tambourine!
I can review the jewels too!
What might be my theme, and what’s this piece’s underlying rhyme scheme?
Could it be ABA, is it ABCDEFA?
What’s the tradition, what’s the contextualizing condition?
Is the work serial, or post-nouveau baroque ethereal?
(Amen, amen, amen, amen…)
Pick – up your clothes
Is there urgent stimuli
For you now
Is there urgent stimuli
Go do now
What came like this, in the past
What came with this, to lay a path and…
Have I ever encountered (FRAME!) – this piece before?
What like this a-bubbles up?
Hey, have I ever encountered – this thing before?
What like this – do I call up?
What happened similar, in the past, and
Ho dee, do dee, twelve plus six eighteen
What happened similar, to lay a path, and
Ho dee, do dee, the lock is blue, not
What can I do now, without thinking
Green, dee doh dee, where’d I put the key?
What now, can I do, my mind is sinking –
Dee doh, did I leave it in my jeans?
Take down the problem, how to
Make out the problem, go break down
Break down the problem, I see
Sweep it a side, to the periphery
Two trains – at different speeds
The truth is in the margins for academia
I wish I had an access to the answer key!
Don’t a duffer bishop of a pointless see
You ought to banish it to your periphery –
So that you don’t bite off-a more – than you can chew
Just scoot that unimportant stuff away from you
So break it down, break it down
Sweep aside the stimuli that you don’t need
A-slide aside detrita to periphery
Whoops!
There goes the key!
I did it, I admit it
Shit! Shame!
I’m the dropper
I did it, I admit it
Eye dropper
Put back/pick up/on desk!
Bend
A-what just happened
Ah, ah
Look at what just happened describe it
Describe it
Look at what just happened
A thought symbol chases another thought symbol like dominoes
What just happened, describe it
Firefly, firefly, fire, fly
Go and make a description, make a verbal description
Tell me what just happened
Give the frame a caption
I locked the key!; I hear myself describe it after I already picked it up and put it back/on the desk
Firefly, fire fire firefly, leave your change in the threshold values
Subject then verb and object
Hey look away, look away my friend
Zero in on the phrase I want to say and
Table
Zero in on the phrases wanting to be said –
But when there’s a clinky word:
Stem the creative flow, the creative, table the inertia flow
Start a search process!
Search for a better word, for a better
Than creative
Search for a more proximate word
Start a search process! Start a search process!
I (SEARCH!) remember there were 4 things
Look back / What’s the… problem
No, I remember there were 3 things – to illustrate; 3 things to deactivate; 3 things in:
Numberer, Numberer, Numberery Numberer
Remember! Remember!
You know you got to remember recombination
You know you got to remember your right left right
Left right left
You know you got to remember to empty your
Cache, clear your cache! Don’t let her know, where you’ve been, better clear out your
Cover your
Cache, clear your cache! Don’t let her know, where you’ve been, better clear out your
Trash, ugly trash, you’ve got to take out the ugly, ugly, ugly trash
Time is ripe for some
Cleaning up (the scattering) the meaning of (your gathering)
Now is time for that
Oral and then anal oral and then anal
Now is time to decipher, decipher – all that gathering
All that scattering
Decipher, decipher, make it legible, clean up the urtext
Decipher, decipher, make it intelligible, clarify!
What just happened to you on the desk
Specify
Take the stance of the listener
What just happened to you on the desk in the kitchen
Chronify
Do a dance for the listener
What just happened when you got up from the desk
Modify
Is it too dense for the listener
What just happened you spilled on the kitchen table
Try to make sense – go and make a label!
Clarify
Clean up, look up
Clarifia clarifia clarifia
Is it clarified enough?
Is it clarified enough?
Or do your illustrations need further illustrating
Temporal smear/is it that clear
Or would further explanation get youu off the path
What’s this I hear – counterpoint?
Did you close the brackets? Do numbers agree?
Is it grammatical?
Is it too chromatical?
Is it optimistic?
Is it anachronistic?
I say it’s purposeful!
No, it’s accidental!
Nah!
I call it murposeful?
But for me, it’s too nonsensical?
Did you close the brackets? Do numbers agree? Is use-mention distinction clear?
Did you show intentionality when you embellished that phrase
Intentionality-
Then you can move on!
Close that parentheses – when you’ve amended your phrase –
Close the parentheses!
Then you can move on! Then you can move on! Then you can move on! Then you can move on! Then you can move on! Then you can move on!
II. The Central Chamber
My amorous embers of tellurian routines hurl obloquy, clamoring
I dreamed I could conquer this lexical army
DAMN.
I want to be 10
A – point
A boy
I want to be ten again
I want to be ten
My perceptual field is too complicated
Go clean up, clean up
Clean up your room, clean up your womb now
Time to clean up
Now right now!
Look at the mess you made
Clean up your room right now go
Am I your indentured maid?
A memory tape I played
Go do
Now go look away from –
Stop cleaning and get to work!
Stop cleaning up and get to work!
I’m scared – help – go look away! Now check – what time is it?
Ten have a snack, talk to my friends again, get back on track, twenty, go to ten!
Ten…ten…ten…
Poor you, you’re thirsty, go pour a glass of juice, you chickenshit for leaving!
Go rejoin your friends, that’s the very best excuse!
I don’t feel optimistic about my ability to succeed in the near future, therefore I look away
Lookaway to the tea or to the coffee
Look away, look away,
Lookaway to a routine I can complete –
Yes I look away from me, from me cuz I failed in recency
Yes he looks away to memory, future or fantasy, lookaway to a routine I can complete!
There’s no way around it, you always look to who your self-symbol came with recently
Frequently!
No way around it, you are a slave to, what lit up in your recency!
Enjoyable activity
Will not be permitted to me
If I were to go to bed without having hit my mileposts
Will I allow myself pleasure, will I give myself permission to enjoy my milestones?
Will I endeavor for leisure, will I be able to find my way using the mileposts?
Have I seen this before? Can you identify?
Have I cleaned this before? Has it been clarified?
I’m comparing, is it more than before? Was it caused by the before?
Family, is it self or other, family, is it strange? Familiar?
Display – of a jewel; display – fake renewal
Frame: is it inside the frame – is it outside the frame?
Finish the routine! Finish the routine!
Is it shrinking or growing
Family is it threatening, does it threaten
Finish the routine! Finish the routine!
Is it approaching, will she be reproaching you?
Warning, there’s a deadline soon!
I’m worrying about my deadline – how will I meet my deadline?
(Stop spending half your time worrying from your deadline!)
Where are you on your routines?
Make a list, prioritize, what item have you missed, were you naughty or nice?
Stop checking out where you are on your routines!
Where you are!
On your routines!
How much of you life are you wasting?
At least 30 percent of the day you piss away…
Wake up, there’s a horsey, wake up for the cow
Get out of the bower, get out of the shower
Leap out of the casement
That’s called a horsey, remember this
Come out of the basement
And that’s called a cow, now learn this!
Emerge from the womb
You’re losing too much heat from your feet
What is that lazing
Vacate your room!
You’re losing too much heat from your – turn it up
Stop for the grazing cattle
And you are about to hit three tons of meat
What is that coming up, hit on your brakes
Emergency, emergency
Emerging merging urgent urgency!
You’re in danger!
You’re not in danger anymore.
You’re in danger!
That’s not a danger anymore.
He’s in danger!
He’s not in danger anymore!
They’re in danger!
They’re not in danger anymore.
Let’s put up a museum for – all the people who were in danger.
We would never commit that / turn our backs – on the danger any more that them – uh oh / it goes
Lullaby lullaby lullaby goodnight, they’re killing someone over there but don’t you worry
Mommy’s looking out
Lullaby lullaby, lullaby sleep tight, they’re killing someone far away so don’t worry
You’re safe inside the frame of your crib
III – The Secret Audience
Peekaboo, I see you!
The sun has come so has mommy, mommy, mommy
Peekaboo, I see you!
The sun has gone and so has mommy, mommy, mommy
Scream! Scream! Scream!
Something terrible, messy wet dirty, cold uncomfortable
Sheila I think I hear Brian crying, don’t think he’s dry and –
Why don’t you check on the baby?
Peekaboo, I see you
The sun has gone here’s the hairy helper mommy
Scream! Scream! Scream!
Give it your best shout, let it all hang out, make use of your mouth
Drat I should have checked on him hours ago, hope he won’t break out –
Into a rash; I’d better change his diaper now, must be uncomfortable
Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!
Uncomfortable!
His diaper’s full, must be uncomfortable
Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!
It is uncomfortable!
Did you change the diaper?
Do we have consensus, is it deactivated?
Do we have consensus, is it deactivated?
Yes, it’s deactivated!
What’s next on the test?
I’m noticing, I’m noticing
I’m deciding
What happened, make a sentence?
I’m noticing, I’m noticing
I’m describing
Apperceiver, I perceive her
I’m noticing, I’m noticing
I’m prioritizing
Stop noticing, go look away and do something!
I’m noticing, I’m noticing
Peekaboo, I see you
Look away, look away!
Hey! What’s tabled, what’s enabled, what’s active in periphery?
What’s tabled, what’s enabled, what’s active in the negative space
The others, the food
Your friend, your enemy
Make a hypothetical
Of what will happen
Rejoin!
If I come upstairs/if I stay downstairs
If I look at him/if I don’t look away from him?
Rejoin the guests, and come on back upstairs, rejoin!
If I don’t come upstairs right now?
Can I do it in the background?
Can I just stay in the basement?
Get out of the bower
Your shower
Do I have to pay attention?
Leap out of your casement
Your basement
Do I have to participate in their conversation?
Get out of the womb
Of your room
Cut this reiteration, get some new stimulation
Get out of the bower, get out of your shower
Now!
No one can hurt you
Get out of the womb of your room
No one can hurt you
Except for him he can hurt you
Protect from him he can hurt you!
Take a ready stance!
Enter the gate when your row is called, not until –
Take a ready stance!
Don’t enter the gate till your row is called, not until!
Will they make me suffer?
A conservative aggressive stance
Will they make me suffer?
Stance..
Send out a sentry then test
Slap him a little
Will I make me suffer
Aggressive stance –
Keep your guard up
Are they approaching
Don’t let your god down
Will she be reproaching
Who’s projecting power
Shrinking or growing?
Who reflects your power
Staying or moving?
Buddy, how’s your favorite fantasy conversation going
Your stance: prepare for battle
Is your ass uncovered, an open zipper showing?
Your stance: prepare for battle
The most noble life of all is to fight the dominant culture
Sacrifice yourself
Prepare for battle
The most noble life of all is to fight FOR the dominant culture
Protect yourself
Don’t show your weakness
Your stance, prepare for battle
Who’s just a gadfly
Prepare to run the Preakness
Your stance, prepare for battle
Will they notice if I –
try to further this conversation
Are they noticing?
While thinking about power balances?
Could I further this conversation
While zoning out
From parsing grammar and tone, alone, alone?
Can I slip in a doze in public?
Can I lay in repose in public?
Can I bring you a rose in public?
Can I take off your clothes in private?
Can I slap at my foes in public?
Can I tell you my woes in public?
I can’t play with my toes in public –
Have to pick my nose in private!
Can I gain admission?
Could I get submission?
Do I have permission – to scratch!
Will he notice if I scratch it?
Scratch
Do it
Haw
Say it: I scratched it
I noticed that I scratched it
I noticed that he scratched it
Did he notice that I scratched it?
I noticed that I noticed that he scratched it
Recursion!
Stop the recursion! Stop the recursion! Go look away or go on an excursion!
I noticed that I noticed that I noticed that I noticed…
That which inflates the symbol of the I
That which conflates the symbol of the I
That which creates the symbol of the I
Is just the symbol of the I
That which observes the symbol of the I
The system
That which preserves the symbol of the I
The system
That which conserves the symbol of the I
The system
Is just the symbol of the I
Porn is going into the living room to get a drink when you should be writing!
Porn is stroking your distant memory to take a break when you should be listening!
Are we on the same path, are we on the very same path?
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Is there anything urgent? (No.) Is there anything different? (Where’s the key?)
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Are we on the same path, are we on the very same path?
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Is there anything urgent? (Maybe.) Is there anything different? (Lock is green!)
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Don’t worry, pay attention, what’s different
Is it important?
Is it familiar?
Is it stimulating?
Is it titillating?
Or threatening you?
Where’s the key? The lock looks different to me!
Are we on the same path, are we on the very same path?
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Is there anything urgent? (Daydream.) Is there anything different? (Look away!)
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Don’t worry, pay attention, what’s different
What’s the theme? Is it “Who’s looking in at me?”
Are we on the same path, are we on the very same path?
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Is there anyone looking in? Is there anything different? (Turning gray!)
Pay attention, pay attention, pay attention
Don’t worry, pay attention, what’s different
Is it important?
Is it familiar?
Is it interesting?
Is she undress –
Rack focusing – at the projector in a heath ed class
Rack rack rack rack rack rack rack
Rack focusing – what kind of tests do I have to pass?
Can you look at me in the right proportions?
Do you look away in the right proportions?
Do you work and play in the right proportions?
Listen and say in the right proportions?
Can you sublimate in the right proportions?
Is your body on straight in the right proportions?
Can you marginalize those who you came from to be with this?
Can you marginalize those who you steal from to feed our kids?
Can you marginalize those you take meals from to please our ids?
One, how graceful, two stable, three, is your program sexually able?
I’m gonna drop the spoon, test your expectations drop the spoon
Four, are you a fighter, five, or just a hider? Hey kid, by the way, are you a provider?
Will mommy pick it up, test your favorite theory, will she pick it up?
I don’t wanna be confronted with your desperation
I don’t wanna be confronted with my own past desperation
I don’t wanna be prevented from swimming in the deep end
I don’t wanna be impotent like a baby or an old man
Could I be included with you, could I mate with the group of you?
Can you discriminate well?
Do you have self-confidence?
Can you discriminate me from them?
My pleasure is revocable, revocable, revocable
Do you have self-confidence?
Are you aggressive enough to overcome obstacles I put up
Are you impressive enough to get around obstacles they put up, can you –
Hide your aim, hide your aim
No, I’m not really looking at you, I’m not really looking at her
No, I’m not really hunting you, I’m not really haunting you
My goal is to impress you
So you don’t notice that right now I have a dream (to divest you of your jeans)
My means is to hide my aim
What is your current theme? What is your new emerging meme?
Hide your aim
Your failure to win her, your fail
How does it affect all your processing
Memorizing?
What’s the moral of this story? What can I take home from it? Will my persistence ever pay off?
Hide your aim hide your aim hide your aim?
What’s the moral of this story? What can I take home from it? Will her resistance ever break?
No –
Matter how pretty of an arch you build, this bird will never come to ya!
She will never surrender to someone that she feels chased by!
Never
Sorry
So sorry, Charlie
She will never surrender –
Is there any way I can update her file
When I came to the new lock –
How has your file been updated?
Mommy, I’ll be a good boy; can I come out now and play with you?
Is there any way I can change her mind?
What atavistic fears, what scumbled memories, Catholic imagery, what past realities?
What does it come with, what does the thought come with
Comes with the thought of me?
I want to be with her, I was a wimp in front of her –
How has her file been updated – I want to file that file –
I want to prove that I’m no longer a wuss – I’ve graduated
…’Duated, ‘duated, ‘duated
Which metonym handle accesses her
What kind of affect colorizes her?
Who’s your childhood anima blister?
Would you rather go down on your mother or your sister?
I still need a babysitter!
Who’s your love making such a signal for?
In mutual semaphore!
Whoever told you nevermore?
Who do you still beggar for?
Is “partner” really a metaphor
For somebody here before?
Is it – someone – in your family? That you would hanker for
Is it – someone – in your family? Your sexual canker sore!
What’s your favorite pain?
Hey listen:
Your archetype fantasy scene?
Listen:
How well does your lover fill your sore?
She was here before, when you weren’t
Feel your sore
She’ll be here after, when you won’t be
How often do you long to feel it?
You’re investigating it –
The mating routine
I saw you simulating it
The mating routine
Too rarely sublimating it
The mating routine
Forever reinstating it –
The mating routine
How settled it are you into your sex house?
What can we Brew again?
How can we Do again?
Make it new Who again?
Meeting you You again!
To please you Woo again!
Hear my sing New again!
Memetically Screw again!
Kill the string Slew again!
How can you fill and decorate her sex house?
How settled in are you into – Das Sexenhaus!
Do you match my archetypal – match my pattern
Can you play my memory game well?
Replicate a scene, illustrate a scene, simulate a scene, recreate a scene
Can you replicate?
That succeeds for me, That succeeds for me, That succeeds for me, That’s sexy –
Can you play my memory game well?
Match my archetypal, match my archetypal, what’s my archetypal frame –
What’s behind the veil?
Match my pattern, match my pattern, match mp pattern –
Replicate a scene, illustrate a scene, simulate a scene, recreate a scene
Can you replicate?
That succeeds for me, That succeeds for me, That succeeds for me, That’s sexy –
Can I replay the sequins unrefusable
I can’t stop thinking about her
The sequence irreducible
It lifted the neural
Sifted the neural
Drifted the neural
Shifted the neural vines!
A memory tape I made
A memory tape I played
A memory tape I saved
A memory tape I crave
Don’t it feel – don’t it feel – like the top of the morn, like a baby reborn?
Don’t it feel good (yes it do) – to play with your porn
What can you see/ on your TV
Will she come in will she catch me / how can I touch my favorite memory?
Ring! Who is on the phone?
Quick – put it away!
Ring! Who is calling from an outside telephone?
Who could it be – someone I couldn’t have apologizing to me?
Who’s your presider?
Who’s the third party?
Where sits Elijah?
Who plays the hidden part?
Who turns your Shangri-La
Is it your peer group?
Into ménage a trois?
Is it your fear group?
Who’s looking in?
Who’s the secret audience?
Who’s looking in?
Is it your family/enemy?
Who’s looking in?
Who’s in the negative space,
Looking in?
Who do you wish would wish were in your place?
Who’s looking in?
Who among the enemies, who among the friends of me?
Hey do you relate to me, now get the heck away from me?
Who’s looking in?
Who among your lovers? Who among your others?
Reads “Are you my mother?” Plays your older brother?
Wait till your father comes home!
I’m making this for you – just for you, only you – I’m trying to make for you while you’re waiting, mommy!
Who’s looking in?
Who makes you breathe and makes you eat and makes you clean and cleans your make
Who sees you bathe and misbehave? And makes you shave and makes you breed?
Who am I explaining to, complaining to, displaying to?
Defensive to, expansive to, offensive to, presentive to?
Who’s looking in?
I’m noticing, I’m noticing
Notice me, notice me
Can you bear a witness?
Who is the mother and father in your environment, a finger, a lover/provider?
How will I fit in talking to those I most desire?
How will I fit in talking to those I most admire?
Will people come to my museum?
Tell me can you really instantiate your image?
What will become of my museum?
Tell me can you really, from imaginary whimmage?
Who’m I being defensive to?
Who will reap what we sow?
Who’m I being presentive to?
Collective superego –
Would you like to be closer to its instantiation?
Fill in the gaps – different info?
Let’s make a deal, deal
Is the distance from your ideals – a source of reprobation?
Fill in the gaps – negative info
Let’s make a deal, deal
Would you trade your current state for a counterfactual state
Let’s make a deal, can you make it real
Let’s make a deal, let’s make a double deal
Hypothesize a future fate, create yourself a new template
Let’s make a deal, let’s make a double double deal deal!
Rationalize away – fill in the gaps – rationalize away – fill in the lacunae!
And in the darkness, when I have reached the podium –
Why can’t you finish what you started?
Was I the artist, or just the gallery custodian?
Have you taken on something too hard?
Have you regard for any readers where you sit,
Or are you dreaming of a secretariat-
Covening in Three Thousand Fifty Two?
I have wuss procedures like cleaning my room, or making up coffee, or taking a whiz when I don’t need it
Did M. Mussorgsky write this way?
They’re things I can complete when it’s too hard
Maybe so
I don’t think so!
I have wuss procedures like twitching my nose, or stroking my beard, or biting the skin around my fingers
Did Jackson Pollack paint this way?
They’re things I can complete when it’s too hard
To get the blood flowing
Maybe so
I don’t think so!
That is, to get the flood blowing –
Maybe so
I don’t think so!
To get the slip slipping!
Even so, they did drink so…
I have twin fears of stasis and change –
Which is to say,
Of dying.
What’s the balance?
The real condition that I solicit: can I get the others to clap?
Can I get the others to crap their clap for me
For those of you hoping maybe that I’ll leave, please be assured that the feeling is reciprocated
Eventually I hope you’ll reflect my hyperbole back to me.
My waistline is making bold new advances in circumference, now –
My thinning hair is a shock! to my sense of time-abundance, now –
Will I make a debut
Like Orson Wells
Will it take me to debut
As old as Grandma Moses?
Who’ll I’ll have been
Only time will tell –
After my win –
dow closes!
Who do you want to be after you die?
Who do you want to have been, B, after you die?
Gotta minimize the discrepancy between it and the present scene
What do you want (Them!) to say after you float away…
“He really worked hard!”
“And he could put it all TOGETHER!”
“To leave a valuable DOCUMENT!”
So I can have my grandchildren hear me saying this to you, future person:
“I thank you for the GRAND PRIVILEGE of entertaining you, future person!”
So that you may take this hypostasis from the sediment
And then you may say
Voices harmonized,
His statement wasn’t illegitimate
Nice and formalized!
And then you may say
“Kilroy was here, so what?”
He’s at the garden of the truth-fruit
“Boy sees brassiere, so what?”
But then I may say
“Noise for whose ears, so what?”
Who are the cherubim that guard the fruit?
Men like –
Beethoven!
Beethoven –
What will the critics say?
Beethoven –
What will the students play?
Beethoven –
Will my parents say?
Brian Felsen –
Shame! Shame! Shame!
For even mentioning his
Your name!
My name!
We want our children, that we identify with, that which we create –
To live an edenic life…
But to honor us for it when we’re gone –